Anna and the Pain

Don't you just hate those days that never go right? Your hair won't comb down properly and there's a lump at the back, then, you drop part of your breakfast onto your uniform, and then, just to make things worse, the people at school are GAY.

Well, to be specific, Autumn and Audrey are just too annoying.

I hate it how I feel like the odd-ball out when we have to be together. Every moment is a torture. It's like they already have this connection even though they can't like each other. I mean hello, Audrey's a REJECT for Pete's sake. Autumn's a FRIGGIN PEROXIDE. THE TWO DON'T MIX. It doesn't make sense. If anything, shouldn't it be me that's the one who's the go-between? Shouldn't I be the one who Autumn talks to in a low-voice in the back row? Or shouldn't I be the one who whispers a reply to Audrey?

Don't get me wrong. I'm not jealous. Why would I be? I'm not even friends with them. It just annoys me.

That's why I decided to finally finish the dodgy latin assignment that Audrey and Autumn started. Frankly, I felt a bit guilty since I've done nothing about it for two weeks and the last time I might have mentioned it was when I was PMS-y (that was the time when I mentioned Wikipedia). And then we handed it in. And now I feel hot and flustered. Audrey and Autumn annoy me. They infuriate me. How dare they leave me hanging. WE'RE A GROUP DAMMIT. WHEN DID THEY BECOME SO CLOSE?

There must be a story behind this sudden friendship. What happened? Autumn's mobile went off in the middle of Latin (when did Autumn have one? I must get her number...) and suddenly she shared a look with Audrey. Then, afterwards they left together in a hurry without even say a goodbye to me.

Don't get the wrong idea, I wasn't expecting them to say bye to me. It's just that it was a group project and I was in the group. Right?

NO. NO. I have issues. It's obvious that I have jealousy issues that shouldn't even exist. It's not like they're my friends, are they? It's not like I'm friends with them like I am with Jadee is it? Why should I be annoyed if they're in a little exclusive club that I can't even join. DO I LOOK LIKE I CARE?

I really don't. But Jadee disagrees with me.

Jadee: You know, Anna, you have serious problems. What's so good about those two anyway? Don't tell me you want be that buddy-buddy with them.

Me: No. I'm not concerned by it. I'm just interested to know how they got so close even though I didn't. It's not like they spent any more time together than I did. Plus, this doesn't add much to my ego, you know. I pride myself on being someone who can be friends with anyone. Even you. The cynical you.

Jadee: I'm not cynical. I'm a realist. Take it as you will. Take my advice, get over it. Move on. There are more interesting things to think about. Have you noticed how close Francesca and Holly are nowadays? Francesca's serious competition for you. You'd better be careful if you want to be school captain.

Me: JADEE. Can't you just advise me for a moment? It's obvious that I'm not going to get over it. I NEED TO BE A PART OF THEIR EXCLUSIVITY. Is that a word?

Jadee: Then... try and be nice to them. I'm sure they'll like you more then.

Me: ... right.

But in the end, I took her advice. I said that Audrey played netball well. It's going to be Autumn next.