Audrey #6

Embarrassment is the worst.

Why do i always let myself be embarrassed by things? Why is it that i cannot stand up and try harder? Why can't i just BE A MAN.

If only I was more like Anna! A few weeks ago I would never have thought of her in such an admiring way, but truly...she is my new ASPIRATION.

Perhaps other people may have managed to pull together sketchy Latin assignments at the last moment. To be kind to a freakish, friendless nerd. To play sport with such skill.

However...Audrey sees only Anna who has done these things. Yes, Anna is truly an inspiration to us all. How could I ever have said that she did not contribute at all to our assignment? That she was totally guy-obsessed and unreliable?

No. No, if I ever said those things, it was because i did not fully understand the truth of Anna at the time.

At that time she had not yet redeemed herself in the eyes of Audrey as...a friend.

I find it so strange to think these words and yet...she said it herself! "Audrey, you're not that bad at netball."

She must be the kindest person i have ever met.

In the spare before our latin assignment was due..when Autumn was incessantly talking on her phone...as I stressed (as inevitably occurs) and was useless...Anna saved us all, by remaining calm, working hard and displaying a remarkable intelligence previously unseen by the (or so i thought) all-seeing Audrey.

During the deep dark hellish hole that was netball training...when others ignored me...when I sank further into the depths of embarrassment...of lack of ball skills...

Anna was kind to me.

How can I ever forget those words?

Anna, you are a true friend.